I've learned that just because you've experienced a devastating heartbreak, doesn't mean you are in the valley. Instead, you can experience something that changes you, something that breaks you, down to your soul, and still be standing high on the mountain top praising a God that poured out his grace.
I've learned that heartbroken and lost are completely different.
I've learned spiritually dry and cup overflowing can't be experienced at the same time.
I've learned that God is better than I ever thought.
I've learned that my marriage is solid.
I've learned that God always shows up.
I've learned who my friends are.
I've learned that family is everything.
I've learned that the most difficult things are not those seen and known by the world but those deep within your soul, unseen and unknown by anyone except Jesus.
I've learned everybody falls sometimes.
I've learned that modern day miracles really do happen.
I've learned what scared really feels like.
I've learned that life if so much more than my eyes can see.
I've learned that we don't understand pain unless we've experienced the same. I don't know the heartache of an addict. I don't know the heartache of abuse. I don't know the heartache of cancer. I can't expect others to understand the loss of a child unless they've lost their own.
I've learned what faith can do...and how much I have.
I've learned that broken and beautiful are one in the same in God's eyes.
I've learned that speaking my thoughts and feelings result in a babbling mess. My heart is better spoken in writing.
I've learned that my aspiration is to be half the person Abby and leak Jesus like she did.
I've learned He will carry me when I don't have the strength to stand.
I've learned that what happens next, only God knows. Speculation is everywhere and everyone has an opinion. But, no matter what "research says", "history shows", or naysayers speak, blah blah blah, a T18 little baby named Abby DID suck a bottle, swallow, tee-tee, poop, smile, and fight like a girl for 12 days.. all with a perfectly shaped head! :-)
I've learned that my best quality is love and my best feature is kindness.
I've learned what true sorrow means.
I've learned what pure joy feels like.
I've learned that my best position and posture is on my knees.
I've learned the true and desperate meaning of 'less words is better'.
I've learned that 2 Corinthians 12:9 is true "My grace is sufficient for you".
I've learned that you can't believe in both coincidence and God.
I've learned that the death process sucks.
I've learned people's motives aren't always pure.
I've learned that I can function on 1 hour of sleep, even at my age.
I've learned that death is a promotion...and my baby daughter outranks me.
I've learned what scripture means when it says God is Love.
I've learned what supernatural intervention feels like.
I've learned that I have zero tolerance for any of these: status quo / self pity / worldly / superficial.
I've learned a sad fact that too many people spend too much time on things they can't do anything about and things that get them nowhere. These things are: worry / anxiety / stress / control.
I've learned that with an open heart, we learn something new everyday.